Night Drawing / The Morning-After Review Tuesday October 15th, 2013 : Listening To Jimi Hendrix's " Rainbow Bridge " 10:27AM

     I'm pleased, pleased as punch. Is it my best work, no. Is it something I am happy to be doing : yes. Is it an extension of what I have been doing : yes. Is it bright, spontaneous, rough and raw and gutsy : yes. These are things that I value, that I appreciate. Do others ? Probably not. Do others get me and my direction ? probably not. Am I getting the proper exposure for my art ?  : again probably not. Do I need to work on getting better exposure ? Definitely. And I will this week.

     Am I moving along and forward? Yes, I certainly think that I am. It's exciting, it's raw and it's primal and pithy and earthy and murky and messed and scratched and ragged and edged and not pristine or perfect : it - these six drawings of last night stand starkly and certainly and make whatever statement that they make. For me that's impressive, it's a lot, it's well-worth my efforts that will continue tonight.

     Not being able to see still results in tremendous clarity and boldness and vibrancy that shines through any murk or mire or muddiness, which there is still some of! I still have the pastels on my two hands as I type this. They are my badge of honor, of authenticity, of authorship. I should paint my whole body with them and wear my whole skin as a testament to this week and what I will do with these " Nights Drawings " of mine.

     The one I am looking at now reminds me of the mood of Halloween that is coming at the end of this month. I am sure I will draw others that will do much the same thing. Only time will tell. I cannot wait and am also tempted to start doing some in the daylight when I can see what I am doing and not have to rely on instinct and trust to : " what will be, will be ", and that it does not matter, because it's my process of doing and dealing and grappling and resolving and moving along and further that ultimately is  my test to myself : my moment in moments marked and preserved for me in these oily pastels that have a brightness, a dullness, and thickness, like thick layers of skin applied over time, quickly, with little added thought, little redress : just a serendipitous reaction of my senses to time and place and any thoughts and feelings that accompany us on this path.

     And me stripping to my birthday suit and drawing : " au naturelle ", ohhhhh so naturally, so comfortably, so with ease and pleasure?!? I love it : I'm fully liberated and relaxed and so at my best. I'll do it again. And the cold and the chill of the evening? It's further stimulus for me to keep busy and active and move along because I never know when it will become too much for me?

     It's all been a great discovery me so far. I am absolutely delighted with last night's results and will continue again later today. I will take pictures of my work as I go along and add them here as time permits. I will also continue to write here daily to preserve my thoughts and feelings and emotions. I'm high and low in emotions now : not much in between. It's a hard emotional time for me as I have baggage and parcels and boxes and pockets and nooks and crannies all crammed full and I am trying to address all of them, air all of them, and give some extended and more expression- comment-dealing-of-them as they do gnaw at me and I have to gnaw back until I can better deal with them. Cheers, Anthony ( TONY ) Quinn  10/15/13  Tuesday morning now in northern Virginia at 10:47AM   Cheers!