The primal raw real me at and just after birth surfaces, demands my attention, grips my complete nakedness before dress, before being addressed or spoon fed to, now, I must be both present and consume myself with that essence that I was born as, with, and recognize that spirit and soul within me yes!

I feel so right , so all me, so called to address that which has always , and in all ways been me before society started to mold and carve, starve, repress, rearrange, put fear and dread and strip me of my true born naked proud self and identity! I now at 6:09 am rise to photograph myself in my floor to ceiling sliding door dining room onto porch reflection inside and in darkness outside to remember, focus, reflect, refurbish, resurrect,mdefine, deliver and appreciate the truthfulness in all my glory and gladness, madness, mystery, quotidian ayantity before any dressing or manipulation or transforning to hide, bury, quarter, quantify, present to the world a manicured manipulated, fanciful, framed, faux version of me! 6:15-6:20am truths - unvarnished or edited or redacted ! It's 43 degrees outside as I step out! Tony

I worked at night in Dewey by the moon and star light reflected off the sand outside our room with floor to ceiling windows and could see outside but not see the colors I picked up to use of my oil pastels trusting in the moment

my results not seeing my colors I drew with at 2am earlier on April 3rd, 2026 always pay off as I yrust in both moment, energy, and self , as well as method! Tony Friday, April 3,2026

crazy as a full moon loving my connection tonself and place and being! Tony 12:05pm now as I post this.

I have a plan, a method, loose, spontaneous, imperfect, flawed, as-is, no real editing but that done by me ‘ on the fly, on my fly or fall or both’!

what a glorious spontaneous gut wrench beach Dewey sprawl crawl crest careen cajole cavort across cross criss caffaw soooo here in mostly oil pastels with our ' room with a view ' spread two large floor to ceiling view of the turbulent torn tested tried tortured tripped up, winds sweepin constant, smeared fingertips in oil pastels yes so calling me to draw upon all my energies here now non-stop till now 4pm Thursday April 2nd, 2026 .

Airy watercolor whims of whimsical water and color my faint musical - Dewey - La plage!

enjoy our moments together! Tony my watercolor just now drying at Dewey beach. April 2,2026 12:00 pm noon here calm peaceful pleasing feel