The primal raw real me at and just after birth surfaces, demands my attention, grips my complete nakedness before dress, before being addressed or spoon fed to, now, I must be both present and consume myself with that essence that I was born as, with, and recognize that spirit and soul within me yes!

I feel so right , so all me, so called to address that which has always , and in all ways been me before society started to mold and carve, starve, repress, rearrange, put fear and dread and strip me of my true born naked proud self and identity! I now at 6:09 am rise to photograph myself in my floor to ceiling sliding door dining room onto porch reflection inside and in darkness outside to remember, focus, reflect, refurbish, resurrect,mdefine, deliver and appreciate the truthfulness in all my glory and gladness, madness, mystery, quotidian ayantity before any dressing or manipulation or transforning to hide, bury, quarter, quantify, present to the world a manicured manipulated, fanciful, framed, faux version of me! 6:15-6:20am truths - unvarnished or edited or redacted ! It's 43 degrees outside as I step out! Tony