I have been like so many conditioned to think feel, believe, not question, like so many, most of the world, to accept as normal which is horribly unnatural and all base bad foul, fiend, furious, fkd human at its very worst, expressly so for the gain of the few to the disastrous detriment of everybody else!

SO: The condition On what condition Conditioned by whomw Our condition Being consistently conditioned So that our condition is the Result of others for their express Gain, not ours, that is the principle Condition of our being over decades Centuries, conditioned, not for our own Good, but for the good of others reaping Taking, plundering, profitting from what!? From the condition these few have conditioned Us to be in without any fault of ours as we For the most part have been totally ubaware As that the condition of the few is always Gain, no pain, no spain, no drain, no stain On these few that believe we are all so dumb So stupid, so heathen, so undesirable, so Worthless that we will do and be,ieve anything To fix us and have us be,ieve rhat, all in good Time, that " if " of Cinderella that we with Our hard work, toil, doing what we are told will One day finally lead to our salvation, that yes You should really believe us, we love you so, That everything will be okay and you - we will F Finally be accelted, admirted, included, one of You! Utter rubbish! Don't you believe a word! We hve Systematically been lied to, deceived, abused, Used till we are no longer of service, dispendable Period!

Once so innocent, I find myself throwing myself daily and nightly into the arms of my innocence!

Once so beautifully purely blissfully innocent, and I escape back to it as often as I am able! Anthony Quinn April 8, 2026 12:09am And then there's the few that would and try to dominate us - me! No fucking way! step aside!

I return to myself often, at least once a day, once a night : the day being often more at ease and perhaps more quick and spontaneous and fleeting, the night more intense, saturated, permeated, infiltrated, infused.

Returning to myself often, reestablishing my inner knowing a d home. The sense of rapture, the immediate need to connect at day, to be Present to, a present for, a thank you, commitment, a gift of self. The evening, the night, undress, the clothes fall off, the weight, too! That few seconds where I breathe in my inner life and feed it warmth. Its so quick so freeing so finding my confort my safety my sense of me. It's a gift I acknowledge giving, prkviding, knowing much of its meaning. I greatly appreciate this act. simple, I find myself as my clothes fall off! Nothing out of the ordinary though my appreciation and transformation is so EXTRAordinary, yet so ordinary, so pure a d peaceful if you lloq it to be Without the guilt, nobworry, no apology, no looking back, not torn by it. I delight, I relish, I embellish, trellis, tree, climb, lose all concept Except to embrace my complete and utter love of my nakedness undress bless! Early this morning I showed off this state this place of self, love, wRmth. My oasis, hr or, open stage , available to be seen by any passing by outside.

The primal raw real me at and just after birth surfaces, demands my attention, grips my complete nakedness before dress, before being addressed or spoon fed to, now, I must be both present and consume myself with that essence that I was born as, with, and recognize that spirit and soul within me yes!

I feel so right , so all me, so called to address that which has always , and in all ways been me before society started to mold and carve, starve, repress, rearrange, put fear and dread and strip me of my true born naked proud self and identity! I now at 6:09 am rise to photograph myself in my floor to ceiling sliding door dining room onto porch reflection inside and in darkness outside to remember, focus, reflect, refurbish, resurrect,mdefine, deliver and appreciate the truthfulness in all my glory and gladness, madness, mystery, quotidian ayantity before any dressing or manipulation or transforning to hide, bury, quarter, quantify, present to the world a manicured manipulated, fanciful, framed, faux version of me! 6:15-6:20am truths - unvarnished or edited or redacted ! It's 43 degrees outside as I step out! Tony

I worked at night in Dewey by the moon and star light reflected off the sand outside our room with floor to ceiling windows and could see outside but not see the colors I picked up to use of my oil pastels trusting in the moment

my results not seeing my colors I drew with at 2am earlier on April 3rd, 2026 always pay off as I yrust in both moment, energy, and self , as well as method! Tony Friday, April 3,2026

crazy as a full moon loving my connection tonself and place and being! Tony 12:05pm now as I post this.