Wednesday, November 6, 2024

I will not let ywil to act, make y own decisions, function independently, freely, firmly, focused and soundly be stripped, robbed, cheated, deceitfully taken from me!

 



The people, at least some, have voted

They have been filled with fear, anger,

And their gender has been courted as

Men and been lied to, and robbed, rated

Mentally brutally forcefully by men to

Further their own inferiorities, insecurities.

Nothing new, going back centuries, the 

Fear of a woman, the shoving of their 

Possible wrath by other men rammed ito

Their psyches and frail brains that act so

Primitively, basically, playing on their

Laziness, their fears so many of rejection 

And being denied their fake worlds so

Wrong of male superiority, a man and his

Party has scared and now scarred so many 

Into a deluded servitude with so many yes

Blatant lies that what lies ahead will not 

Any of them, will certainly not serve them

Well but rather turn them further into slaves

Themselves with little real benefits except

For those that now control them, their minds,

Their will to act in any way independently.

We all will feel from these effects and be yes

Strengthened in the process with meters and

Boundaries within two years then four and

The question is how will we adapt, react,

Channel our purpose , our energy, our fear

And being mad into positive results not just

For ourselves but for ‘ we the people ‘!?





Tuesday, October 8, 2024

Scaefycat, scaredy dog, scaredy man, fear this, fear that, fearful, running with fear, fierles, frantic YET purpose found in living in each moment, meaning found in doing serendipitously , consistently catching the wigs of energy and inspiration and reacting enthusiastically , emphatically, consistently , always, in Al way, ALL IN!

 


It has been what it has been

And I am proud of that yes

Fading my own way a path

A web a manner a means to

Which create write draw see

Put out, forth, into a surface 

That within me reacting sooo

To my immediate environment 

Knowing instinctively by gut

That which would and was so

Very immediately about to happen

Through my reacting to my settings

Something good, real, alive, true

To leave my, a bit of me, my heart

My soul my pilgrim wanderer here

There somewhere somehow, by my

Own believing means a trail a track

A commitment, contact, so quick so

Fleeting so lasting with such impact





I am proud , it has taken time

And now I must do equally to

Stop my fear, stop being afraid

I must show the outside world

That life all around me that has

Inspired me so and fulfilled me so 

that which I have registered recorded

Reused on paper , in words, on canvas

Cardboard, many surfaces , shiny, dull

Matted, rough, smooth, coarse, crass 

Just that which in ink, paint, watercolor 

Pastel both oil and dry, magic marker,

The world through me, by me, 4 all 2 c!



BOO!it’s soon Halloween, let us Al

Not lose our sense of humor or of

Childish glee and wonder, joy and

Magic and mystery, fable and fantasy!


Tuesday, September 24, 2024

Life is so focused for me now! It’s raining hard, I a inside taking a break from paint g our basement ceiling wall and organizing my body of art and my life to familiarize myself again, and know where to look as I push onwards a pilgrim soul I am!

 



Life is indeed rich as I center myself

Few distractions distract me on purpose

My mind creates my harsh drama of

Which, I want no part, except extraction

Extracting myself, finding myself anew

In my body in my work in what I piled

Stored, collected, saw promise in so that

I did not toss it, but toss some now I must

To find that order that makes it easier to

Serendipitously send my way through so

Much of my begin-not-done-works-of-art!

And it is all happening as I am the tortoise

I move steady I move slow but I move my butt!

No ands ifs of buts just my naked butt as I please

As I tease my surroundings as well as please me!





Saturday, August 24, 2024

I have been given a gift, unexpectedly, of TIME to attend to my & our personal business, to create my art, organize my art and life and accumulated possessions, to react to life now as it stands on the turning point of freedom and democracy, to garden, to focus on those I love and get a better balance, my health, me, oh YES!

 



So I am thrust to bust

To break to ache to

Grow to listen & learn

To come forth from myself

To u earth, rekindle, find,

Relax and be less angry as

I have been angry & fearing

And I need to let most all of

It GO! BEgone withYOU that

Impedes my joy and growth &

Love , childish delight, focused

On my goals and doing what NOW

Must be done, must be accomplished 

By me, I am the one in the driver’s seat!

I am here to deal with the cold & heat!


I am on a crusade to make more red BLUE!

Sunday, August 18, 2024

The temperatures inside turned to scalding sooooo my insides my being entier as they say in French, to scalding scolding,holding, helping, harassing me soooo, pesky, perky, pertinent, gut rumblings, escaping my total feeing of being so completely lost and alone!

 

I am set to implode any minute smothered

Spread spanking spurted sparked sinning so

I must be a supreme sinner! I must be a total

Complete lost cause with no cause at all X so

Cept accept NOT be I so bloody sullied in my

Own spit sperm dirt filth sweet sour sweat so

Mired mirrored marked murked mucked mocked

Not understood or loved yet supremely loved

Yet I am so distracted from that which grounds

Me to life to others my wonderful wife that has

Always stood by me not disputing me feeling

Abandoned by me and for that I must atone and

Make  amends  before it is too late I still can it do!



My art with black acrylics and two tiny brushed plumes that smear and smudge and mirror some of my steady guttural churning unease these days to make what’s wrong , what’s i addressed  dressed and right! Tony 8/18/2024 Sunday 6:34pm now listening to Jacques Brel that I love in French! Tombe!

Saturday, August 17, 2024

Nag nag nag a nagging a disquieting upsetting uneasy feeling not an easy peaceful feeling, the reverse! So here I go again with full throttle and full purpose yes yes yes yes YES!

 

The nag, the constant unease in anag a pull 

A tug a jerk a nudge a nasty feeling of not

Being or doing or making or sharing or being

Enough so I say Enough is enough! I have had

Enough to last me the rest of my life now I will 

Just focus on finishing what I have started and

Worked on so far all of my life to make me proud!





My work this morning Saturday morning August 17,2024 black acrylic on paper with brush, line drawings and shading and shadows gesturing suggesting life in black and grays and more! Enjoy! Tony 8/17/2024 Saturday morning now late

Thursday, August 15, 2024

Promoting art is a full-time emersion experience life-long job , or so it appears!

 

When did it become more than making art?!

When did the artist have to sell himself or her-

Self, he/him she/her LGBT or binary or the persons 

or persons making the art, or the art selling itself?!

What is the market? What is the human landscape of peops 

buying or not buying art!?!? Should an artist devote 

Time to this at all!? I am reading a book about it now

Written in 1978 by an artist by the name of Carole katchen

And it is blowing my fragile-strong-questioning-artFULL

Being so with so much involved to have a successful

Art career and make your money off your art, enough

To live on and not have another job, and this is all WAY

Before the internet and all forms of social  media!



I have waited till now at age 70 simply focusing on

Making whatever art I could ALL on my own terms

And am pleased worried sure yet not, confident and

Full of doubts, questions,  uncertainties, more! Yes

I am a mess but I have a body of work to fall back

Onto as I have fifty years of works to show if I

Choose. That gives me a life’s reactions  and re-

Cordings through all my senses filtered but not fined 

or especially defined, open for individual interprets

As it is all so truly subjective and personal, or, at

Least should be and not with the only driving factor

To be money! Have your own opinion, dare to! I

Dare you to do so, to fly free in the wind and get

Back your own individual power and strength of u!

Above is one of my word-writings I have done in the 

last few days, in sketch book with acrylic paint & brush.

My art is for sale, contact me if interested, or interested 

In seeing more. I am working on my next art show, stay 

tuned for so very much more! Sante a tous! To health!